An ocean of time…

I once walked along the ocean for so long I forgot all about time. The waves lapped against the shore and in the distance I could see a tiny sailboat. The sun hung just over the horizon giving life to another part of the world and bringing an end to a long day in my small world.
I thought about what it would be like to be on that boat, bound for anywhere….far far away from the life I once knew. In my mind I drifted for days without a care in the world…my past melted away and the future didn’t even matter……
It’s funny how in our mind, everything works out and things seem to just be ok in the end….
As the sun began its decent into darkness and the wind brought a chill, I awoke from my daydream back to the reality of my life,…..here there was no sailboat and the past was still ever present. My fear of the future was still real and life doesn’t always work out…..but for a moment,…..just a moment that seemed to last forever……it was all so real in my mind.
Ive often thought, I should spend more time walking along the oceans path….but you know how busy we get with life and all of its pressing issues….
But when I close my eyes, I can still see that tiny sailboat drifting on a beautiful sea……

Lloyd Rosen
www.lloydrosenphotography.com
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Search for significance…

I’ve been walking a long hard road for sometime now….. I’m not sure what I am after. Maybe I just want to be happy deep down, like everyone. For me it seems so allusive…..I mean, I’ve quit job after job…moved from state to state and back. I’ve done pretty much every type of art there is and now I am “Lloyd Rosen” the photographer….. and after a failed marriage….I am on another, what seems like an endless road.
Where does this happiness come from? Does anyone ever really find it? Hell I take photos of some of the most beautiful women….people say they love my work and I am traveling the country with a very beautiful girl….. it all seems good to most people……
Yet here I am….alone in my mind. I have no one that calls me, no one that honestly seems to give a Damn whether I am here or not. Now I know that isn’t entirely true…. there are a couple people that care deeply….and I do not take that for granted….
I feel very alone in the world and I know we aren’t supposed to ever show anyone our weakness,…..but I’ve never really cared too much for rules….
Maybe that’s why I am the over thinking eternal pessimistic optimist….. I know in the end ill be ok, but sometimes I guess I just need to spit it out. I think that is healthy for the soul.
Well for now, we sleep in the car. Shower at the rec.center and I continue my quest to become a famous photographer. I am very thankful for what I have. I wish I wasn’t so troubled, but one day at a time….. just wish I had more people to talk to, but because of the way I grew up… I never learned that skill. If you met me in person, you would never know I have a problem in the world….but unfortunately…. I do.
Well thanks for listening….. I really do think blue skies are coming my way…. I really do.

Lloyd Rosen
www.lloydrosenphotography.com
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